the worst is having a dream where someone loves you and you can practically feel them touching you and it feels so real and then you wake up and it’s like the life is being sucked out of you and the happiness just drains out of your body and you feel empty again
Can I just say, Chris McCandless’ story isn’t fucking admirable. His “search for self” or reality or an escape or whatever you want to call it is just foolish naivety. He’s running away from his problems at home. Which is understandable, to an extent. To go off into the wilderness with an under-packed backpack, burn your money, denounce your family, burn the bridges with everyone he comes in contact with, it’s just stupid and selfish and foolish. He turned his back on Ron Franz who loved him so much and wanted to adopt him, all because he was so fUCKING focused on completing his journey.
I’m an emotional wreck at this point because that movie made me want to weep for approximately 500 years but like Chris McCandless is a selfish prick and I’m SO UPSET THAT HE TURNED HIS BACK ON THE OLD GUY FROM WATER FOR ELEPHANTS JUST BECAUSE HE WANTED TO GO TO FUCKING ALASKA AND DIE LIKE FUCK YOU CHRIS FUCK YOU JEEEEEEEZ.
“Life exists only at this very moment, and in this moment it is infinite and eternal, for the present moment is infinitely small; before we can measure it, it has gone, and yet it exists forever.”—Alan Watts (via setbabiesonfire)